randomness

tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

St. Petersburg, Russia.  That’s only one of many places I must visit.

so all is good after a few days of pouting.  at what point do the emotions and insecurity become manipulative?

back to walking on eggshells to protect him and us.

heartbroken.

i figured it out too late.

…and with one careless word our relationship was in ruins.

“when i said what i said it didn’t mean anything”

the national - conversation 16

for so many years i thought life was pointless and didn’t see any reason for being alive.  but there was someone in my life who was always positive, always looking out for others and always holding on to her dreams and goals.  and you know what?  she got everything she wanted.  great career, loving husband, beautiful children and the love and respect of her family and friends.

so i was thinking about her and how maybe life wasn’t pointless and that there was a reason and maybe i should try to be a little more excited about living and enjoy the things that i have.

and then she died at age 44.

so what’s the meaning of life again?

so cold and achey.  can’t wait to go home and curl up in bed.